How will i ever get a hold of you, your still in my dreams, your still in my mind, your like my own new deadly batch of heroin, i need you when I'm anxious, i need you when I'm sad, i need you when I'm mad, even when I'm happy, always knowing i can be happier. i will never add up to what u want me to be, i might never do what you want me to do, but no one will ever love you as much as i did, as much as i do. I'm no ordinary man, my meat is real, I'm human, I'm real, I'm me, can you dig it? I try turning to god, thinking believing in him will change my ways, my thoughts. there's a demon within me, i heard them say, today i will never change. i will die just the way i am.