So thats the feeling?

lesson learned, now im off for a drink and a smoke.

confirmed.

Rock and fucking roll.

Call me selfish call me what you like
I think it's right to want someone for all your own
and not to share her love
And I'll have my way and won't have to say anyway
I've got you
You didn't stand a chance
You want perfection
I see your self destruction
You don't know what you want
It's gonna take you years to find out
I'm not giving up
And when you've had enough you'll take your bruised little head
And you'll come running back to me
You know that I'm gonna be the only one

i just wanted to have a word.

How will i ever get a hold of you, your still in my dreams, your still in my mind, your like my own new deadly batch of heroin, i need you when I'm anxious, i need you when I'm sad, i need you when I'm mad, even when I'm happy, always knowing i can be happier. i will never add up to what u want me to be, i might never do what you want me to do, but no one will ever love you as much as i did, as much as i do. I'm no ordinary man, my meat is real, I'm human, I'm real, I'm me, can you dig it? I try turning to god, thinking believing in him will change my ways, my thoughts. there's a demon within me, i heard them say, today i will never change. i will die just the way i am.

i feel like there is a black cloud floating up above my head. i spent to much money on beer today. i mea ALOT of money on beer. i woke up in mikeys room walked to his garage stole some water haha, and got home just now. this is sad...





i wrote about my feelings and my thoughts but then i realized they dont matter anymore. good morning.

i hold my hands up

i am a believer in joy division,

I'd do anything for you,

I was on my way to milk&honey, then i thought about why i was going there? there was no one i wanted to see there. So i made a detour, and ate the bombest burrito of my life, (i say that about every burrito after im done with it) and now im here, ready to go to sleep. or id ont know. go bug someone.

phorever♥

you only hate me..

because i can get whatever i want.

Smoke out fest

why even bother saying sublime is gonna play, its pretty much long beach dub allstars covering sublime.
LAME.
whatever
im going
the moolah is good.
check come now.

anxiety

is killing me today. wtf is up with my head

stressed out,,

sex, drugs, rock n roll, pisto, and gang bangin:.

fuck.